January 8, 2019

Oh, that I had wings like a dove! I would fly away and be at rest… (Psalm 55:6)

In the summer of 2014, we were still reeling with the shock and sadness of Joe’s terminal cancer diagnosis. Our days were spent scheduling radiation treatments, starting chemo, trying to rel...

November 22, 2018

It has been one year since Joe left us on Thanksgiving Day 2017. Hard to believe. Memories of him flood my mind this week…

Homeschooling him—he struggled with spelling but excelled at thinking and problem solving (and art, music, economics…)

Hiking up the local hill with...

November 12, 2018

In the last ten years or so of his life, Joe wrote many songs and poems, and I am so grateful for that. While going through his computer, Anna came across a recording he did of one of his poems. It is a lighthearted piece about a little pen looking for his purpose in l...

October 24, 2018

Oh dear. It was right around this time last year when Joe was admitted to the hospital for the last time. I was out of town but nearby on a much-needed personal retreat when Jeff texted me that he was taking Joe to the ER because of severe nausea. I came home the follo...

October 7, 2018

Joe was what my friend Jan calls an “old soul”. All of his life, he had a wisdom and maturity beyond his years. Even when he was a child, I often had the feeling he was the smartest person in the room. I mean I’m sure he wasn’t (at least not when I was in the room—haha...

September 14, 2018

I knew it would be hard.

Recently I began going through Joe’s room. I am saving some things and having a quilt made from some of his shirts. I could almost hear him: “Mom, really? A quilt? Somebody could be wearing those shirts.”

And I reply: “I am giving away most of yo...

August 28, 2018

Happy Birthday, sweet boy. (Sorry Joe, you’ll always be my sweet boy).

You would have been 25 today.

I am planning to hang out alone at a local park and just walk or listen to music. You liked parks. You and I walked many times to our neighborhood park to play guitar or...

August 19, 2018

As you know, I really thought a lot of my son. There is so much I miss about him: his kindness and courtesy, his practical help, his humor, new song and poem reveals, his advice, his challenges (encouraging me to play the drums 20 minutes a day, or to make a timeline o...

July 29, 2018

Joe never had many close friends, but that was his choice. Sometimes throughout his life I would encourage him to get together with other people and develop outside relationships, and from time to time he did that. But overall, he preferred to hang out with his family...

July 9, 2018

For three and a half years I took Joe to doctors’ offices, labs, chemo infusion centers, rehab centers, and sometimes hospitals. Every time we went someplace medical-related I carried the same tote bag. It contained Joe’s latest lab reports, a monthly calendar of his a...

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